The One Thing I Meant to Say

Possibly the One: “So tomorrow are we going to go to the movies?”

Me: “Yeah.  I will call you when I get off work.”

Possibly the One: “Okay.  Hey, E.B.?!”

Me: “Yes.”

Possibly the One: “I love you.”

Me: “Okay.”

That is all I could say, was okay.  I did love him but I was afraid.  I did not want to let him in and I did not want him to think I wanted him more than he wanted me.  So I just said okay.

He was the player type and I knew it.  He had swag and he was a charmer.  Every time I saw him I got weak in my knees; however, I was not going to be like every other girl he dated.  I was not going to fall for him easily and I was not going to take his shenanigans.  He had a reputation of being a lady’s man. So I just said okay.

The next day we went to the movies and we hung out as usual but slowly the calls stopped.  We went from seeing each other multiple times a week, to just once a week, to every now and then until occasionally when we bumped into each other at social events.  I wanted him to do more than just say he loved me. I wanted him to show me, so I just said okay.

To this day I wonder if he really did love me?  Was he the one?  What would have happened if I told him I loved him back and until this day I will never know.  I have closed that chapter of my life and so has he.  We still are cool and we still greet each other with a smile.

I learned that love runs on its own time.  Although, actions speak louder than words, sometimes words can set those actions in motion.  This is the one thing I wished I would have said but I did not.  I live and I learn.  I can say now I am ready to let someone in.  However, the truth of the matter is: if it was meant to be it would be.

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